"Choices"

The road is unclear,

Faith unknown,

The dreams are real,

I said it but I didn't forgetting my visions I lose,

How could I be so rude,

Everything I hoped for is dead,

Its seems I've been deceiving everyone,

Disappointing the world,

Lusting for more,

How can you love someone when you don't love yourself,

Choices we make.

"10-20-11"
-L.Bell

Sometimes- In My Eyes

Sometimes I feel alone like I don't belong,

Sometimes I wonder what's my purpose in life why was I created,

Sometimes I feel like others don't get me,

Does it matter that I'm different aren't we all,

How can I help you when I can't help myself,

How can I let out what's in when it won't come out,

Nightmares of deception I fear me,

My soul is humble holding i fumble,

I always wondered why I did certain things now I see I'm living in my own dream,

Waking up is the key,

My eyes are open but I can't see.

"9-26-11"
-L.Bell

Im Ready

You know sometimes I feel alone,

Like no one cares,

Sometimes I feel left out from the world like everyone leaves me behind,

Some days I just want to give up and let go,

But I hear your voice "I'm here",

Some days I wonder about my past and why did I leave it behind,

My future planned by the unknown,

My destiny unknown,

Looking past the road,

Fear overwhelms me,

What if I always say,

I can't stand hearing the rain,

It can't storm forever,

There's something I've been waiting to say,

But words always get in the way,

How can I show it to you,

When it isn't clear,

There's nothing I would rather do,

Then spend every moment with you,

There's no way i can resist,

I guess the road was just to long.

"9-21-11"

-L.Bell

Misery

I guess its to late, you don't get me, I tried but I failed,

I won but I lost, who's to blame,

I never would've predicted this was going to happen,

I guess life has its picks and chooses,

Out of all the vowels I chose you,

I chose you but I don't have you,

Your beauty blinds me while fear shines me,

Why does it have to be like this,

Why can't we all be happy,

Why can't I face it,

Like a magnet my mind always wonders back to you,

You can't finish a chapter if it keeps repeating itself,

I hate to look in your eyes but how can I look away,

But i guess actions speak louder than words.

-L.Bell

What If

What if people didn't judge me you think that

would make me a better person, What if i wasn't

scared of life you think it would change anything, What if

you wasn't reading this you think you wouldn't understand me,

What if i didn't meet you you think my life would be any better, What if

I fell in love you think it would make me a better man, What if we talked

you think you could help me, What if i wasn't scared you think i would've

listened to my friends, What if I just didn't know you think I would have

you on my side, What if you didn't understand me you think it would matter

or not if you tried to.

"7-6-11"

-Leon B.

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me.
Black as a pit from pole to pole.
I thank whatever gods may be,
For my conquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance,
I have winced, and cried aloud.
Under the bludgeoning of chance,
My head is bloody, yet unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears,
“Looms” but the horror of the shade,
And but, the menace of the years,
Finds, and shall find me unafraid.

It matters how straight the gate,
How charged with punishment the scroll,
I am the master of my fate;
I am the captain of my soul.


-By Mr. William Ernest Henly-

A Special Girl

Why? Is the question we both ask, As my

soul crumbles and Integrity I let go, In my

head I ask have I ever seen someone so smart and

so beautiful and I answer with your name, Insanity

I've tired to defeat many many times before, Chances

I had, But you seemed to grow far and further away, As

I looked into your eyes I saw what I would've had, Why

I never told you only I know, But shyness and fear combined

to form the key of my life, More and more I think of you

my heart burns like a liter, Chances and chances I didn't

take them, But if I had 1 more It'll be my last.

"7-4-11"

-L. Bell